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19:29 Aug 31 2019
Times Read: 845

The last few days have been going to by so quickly- I feel like I don't have enough time in a 24 hour period to do all the things I want to do. I guess I need to start getting up earlier and staying awake later.

19:03 Aug 31 2019
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raviolisandacoke isn't a troll profile- it's me. You can't rate it whatever you want of course... but just know it's legit and not a 'problem' profile.

21:25 Aug 30 2019
Times Read: 932

Wanna see something super sad? *pretends countless people said “Yes!” in unison* It is powerful though. I feel it BIG.

PRIVATE ENTRY
04:04 Aug 30 2019
Times Read: 978


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22:48 Aug 29 2019
Times Read: 1,021

After a bunch of cleaning around the house today- I think I'll make myself dinner and go in the living room to watch Netflix for the remainder of the day. I'm here alone... husband is working the Saints/Dolphins game at the Superdome, and of course Cristo lives in the dorm. This means... 'whatever the hell I wanna watch' night! I might just even decide to put dry Capn' Crunch in a bowl and eat it like popcorn later on. I'm a wild woman, you never know what I'm gonna pull next.

And I laughed, too.
06:49 Aug 29 2019
Times Read: 1,089

I shuffled and picked a random Oracle card with the question, "What do I need to know right now?" I swear... this really just happened...

18:37 Aug 28 2019
Times Read: 1,135

I am constantly in awe of what my son is doing in college and with his career. He just doesn't stop. It's everything a parent could ever hope for. All that he does- and he still loves coming home every weekend he has free to play board games, Magic: The Gathering, watch movies with us... whatever. I pray he has a long life filled with all the adventure and experiences of his dreams. He's sure been a 'dream kid' for me :)

02:19 Aug 28 2019
Times Read: 1,210

Re-adding things to my journal... first a Tarot reading room in the French Quarter- I was here visiting a metaphysical shop with Sahahria:

Kick ass Tarot deck I chose to purchase with a gift from Mogy, "Santa Muerte Tarot":



The amazing "Golden Thread" gifted by immortalxkiss:



More of those cards:



"Tarot of Pagan Cats" (mini deck)!



"Spiritsong Tarot" (click on it to open it, and then click again to enlarge for more detail):



And the "Illuminated Playing Cards", that double as playing or Tarot cards. They've folded the Major Arcana into the Minor- so 22 cards do double duty (although you can read from just regular playing cards anyway). There are also 2 decks. Both the same, just the choice of light or dark color scheme.

21:13 Aug 27 2019
Times Read: 1,274

One of the regrets in my name change was losing *some* of my previous journal entries- like the thank you's to those two here who got me Tarot cards. I got them from other people I didn't share, from elsewhere. I won't share them all (not all as interesting)- but some are. A couple I bought for a few bucks each on eBay as well as one of them I got with an Amazon gift card for something completely different were... underwhelming. HOWEVER, I do have some great ones now :)

20:30 Aug 27 2019
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19:45 Aug 27 2019
Times Read: 1,316

I'm laughing at your kismet, Morrigon... look at this screenshot I found in my File Storage before changing my name :)

18:27 Aug 27 2019
Times Read: 1,347

I just posted this on a friend's Facebook post about being stood up. I wanted to post it here as well- because I want to have a record of this memory here for others to look back on if they want. It's the kind of thing middle-aged women do, give advice :P

When I was 19 and in the Marines- I got back together with a boyfriend who was stationed in South Carolina, and I was in North Carolina. We reconnected over the phone and in letters- and he asked me to go to his sister's wedding with him. He wanted me to take leave and we would have a wonderful road trip to Missouri where I would meet his family. I put in my leave paperwork and was approved, I packed up and waited. He never arrived. He never called.

I thought he might've died! A week later, I called his work and he answered. He nervously told me this wild line about ending up in jail for a week (where he couldn't call) due to a huge fight he had with a fellow Marine- and never going to his sister's wedding because of it. Obviously things didn't work out between us. That week though- I almost killed myself. One of the times in my life I've been that low. Someone walked into my barracks room just as I had a razor to my wrist. I had already planned to not follow through- I started to do it, then for a split second I looked at how late it was on the clock and realized I hadn't ironed my cammies or shined my boots for work the next day and if I didn't die from this I wouldn't be ready for work (HA!) and then started laughing at how ridiculous it all was. So- the friend actually walks in my room and sees me LAUGHING with a blade to my wrist o_O He reported me. And from there- a female officer took me away for the long weekend to spend it with her family and keep me in a healthy atmosphere.

Flash forward 20 years- that guy and I connected on Facebook. You know, sometimes we accept friend requests from people and aren't too terribly invested in them. Well, I noticed pictures he was tagged in- and some were from years ago when he attended his sister wedding. Yep. I knew he lied back then. But you know what- I have no feelings at all for that person. And there was a moment in time I was going to kill myself because of him. He means nothing. I mean... I am not even angry with him. I don't care enough to be.

The moral of that true story? The idea of giving so much energy to people who don't care an iota should be squashed. Pick up a cat and binge watch YouTube videos on a subject you want to know more about. Learn how to make a new dish you've always wanted to create. Go try new makeup tips just to see if they look stupid or not, then post pics of ridiculous eyebrows (lol)- all these things are way better than giving a second of sadness to people who aren't giving a second to us.

04:46 Aug 26 2019
Times Read: 1,448

Before I changed my profile name today I spent several hours sifting through 500 Saved messages, saving or trashing them (almost 14 years worth of stuff)- and everything in my old File storage... because those things delete when you change your name. Man, the gems I found :). Lots of stuff from Sahahria.

It’s really still a whole lot of bullshit that she passed away. I still think about her all the time. Every time something is going on with with mutual friends, the Tarot cards, Morrigon’s wedding, words she’d overuse (lol)... damn it.